CONTROL?

I like being in control. I like to know where I'm going and have an active role in getting there. Admitidley, I'm a terrible backseat driver. Turn left, turn right, slow down, speed up, stop here, go there and on and on an on. In our 7 years together, it's a wonder Nic hasn't once pulled over the car and asked me to get out. I would have!

It's not easy for someone like me to feel a lack of control. It unsettling. But as I get older, I learn to appreciate that the sky won't fall if I'm not on top of everything. The IVF process has been a test There are many unknowns and I can't control the outcome. But I can, and have been, getting my body ready for it's own science experiment.

I'm lucky that we found a friend in Benny who helped Nic and I rediscover the enjoys of exercising (and for helping us rediscover our slimmer bodies!) I'm thankful that it's July and the local markets are full of fresh organic vegetables. A shout out to Chris Penton who runs the Preston Market! love my Saturday visits where I see friends, meet local farmers and come home with bags full of eats! (It's nice when I can satisfy a shopping urge with healthy foods instead of new shoes.)

I'm fortunate to live in Ottawa with its' amazing bike paths and its proximity to my family's cottage. And I am most grateful for the life Nic and I have built and the new lifestyle we've adopted.

So the reality is I have a lot of control over this phase of my life..... except when Nic's driving.